I've been feeling ridiculously drawn to my creative side lately, often dying to get home and write for hours on end. I started a new private blog on another blog hosting site just to see if I felt more comfortable writing without any audience. I decided I'm going to try my hand at some freelance writing gigs too. Before I do this, I think I will have to make a portfolio of my work so that I can present myself as organized and concise.
I've been throwing the freelance gig idea around for quite some time but haven't gotten anywhere just because I often feel silly that I don't have much documented experience. I mean, I've had articles published while I interned for Philly STYLE Magazine, I've written some copy and official communications at my current job, but I have never been published by a print magazine or an online magazine. There's a theme here...quitting before I even begin. There have been many opportunities for me to put myself out there, but I haven't capitalized on them. Fear.
But there's no better time than the present, right?!?
I have a friend from college whom I love dearly. This friend inspires me in the way that she is always striving to live more, live better, be better, live a life that fulfills her. She's pretty neat. Just a few weeks ago, this college friend informed me that she's now setting her sights on being a news broadcaster and has even begun shooting small clips during snow storms we've had. She's been in contact with a news outlet in Oregon that's interested in what they've seen from her.
She reminds me of the The Avett Brothers song "Head Full of Doubt,"
Decide what to be and go be it.Seeing her passion regarding this new project made me happy and jealous at the same time. I haven't been able to get the idea of going for it out of my mind since.
So, I think I'm finally ready to be something that makes me feel like I'm useful. I know that writing makes me happy, makes me feel like me, makes me feel like I might have a tiny gift, (a gift that needs a lot of cultivating and work of course) but a gift nonetheless. It's time to see something through til the end when it comes to this stuff. Even if it doesn't go anywhere, at least I can say I tried.
Shit. Now that I've written about it, I actually have to do it. Anybody out there want to hire me to write for them? I'm all yours.
Photo from Nirrimi.